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I just read changina's reborn blog and it inspired me to post again.
Not that I have anything to say. I just want to put off further studying.
We are doing microbes right now and it is turning me into one paranoid motherfucker. I am a total germaphobe now. my hands are getting dried out because i wash them like 80 times a day. and i have to wash my hands now before every meal because i have this irrational fear of some ass-scratcher giving me pinworms.
I can't decide if I love or hate med school. I really like knowing shit. But I goddamn I hate learning. People who say they have a love of learning are full of it.
One of the things I find most amusing about med school is what competitive posers med students are. I guess the application and interview process selects for these personalities. Med students are like the best friggin head nodders in the world. I always feel so stupid in classes and small groups because everyone always seems so smart and all-knowing. But then you get to know people a little better or come exam time you realize that most of em are totally full of it.
It's so tricky though sometimes because it can be hard to tell who is really smart and who is just really good at making shit up. I don't mind the know-it-all's or even stupid people, although they can get annoying. It's the pretend-to-know-it-all's that try to impress everyone else that fundamentally bother and amuse me. Amusing because I like to keep track of who's full of shit so i can listen to them more closely at laugh at them behind their backs. I mean yeah I think I'm smarter than everyone else but at least I have the dignity to keep that shit to my blog and I don't go around trying to prove it to everyone. When i don't know something I always own to it.
The reason this comes to mind is that we've been doing a lot of small group sessions which are a pain in the ass but I really enjoy analyzing how different people act, especially in front of the professor. Even more satisfying because i've had two personal evaluatino meetings with our prof where our conversations have sidetracked into him sharing his thoughts about just how much 'posing' goes on and him reassuring me that he 'can tell' when people are faking it. His radar must be off though because he apparently thinks I'm smart when I never really say anything and I honestly never know what the hell is going on because i'm always so far behind. It must be the relative excess of stupid shit being said and he probably catches me rolling me eyes from time to time.
But seriously it kinda worries me because these are the same people who will one day be out in circulation prescribing medicine and diagnosing my parents, relatives, friends and innocent strangers. Fundamentally they aren't going to be getting any smarter... just a lot better at faking it. A lot of people will just see the white coat and won't know any better. Like how I am at the mechanic.
Moral of the story... never trust your doctor! We're idiots!!! Or rather talk to your doctor and then go look shit up in wikipedia and make sure he knows what the hell he's talking about.
Not that I have anything to say. I just want to put off further studying.
We are doing microbes right now and it is turning me into one paranoid motherfucker. I am a total germaphobe now. my hands are getting dried out because i wash them like 80 times a day. and i have to wash my hands now before every meal because i have this irrational fear of some ass-scratcher giving me pinworms.
I can't decide if I love or hate med school. I really like knowing shit. But I goddamn I hate learning. People who say they have a love of learning are full of it.
One of the things I find most amusing about med school is what competitive posers med students are. I guess the application and interview process selects for these personalities. Med students are like the best friggin head nodders in the world. I always feel so stupid in classes and small groups because everyone always seems so smart and all-knowing. But then you get to know people a little better or come exam time you realize that most of em are totally full of it.
It's so tricky though sometimes because it can be hard to tell who is really smart and who is just really good at making shit up. I don't mind the know-it-all's or even stupid people, although they can get annoying. It's the pretend-to-know-it-all's that try to impress everyone else that fundamentally bother and amuse me. Amusing because I like to keep track of who's full of shit so i can listen to them more closely at laugh at them behind their backs. I mean yeah I think I'm smarter than everyone else but at least I have the dignity to keep that shit to my blog and I don't go around trying to prove it to everyone. When i don't know something I always own to it.
The reason this comes to mind is that we've been doing a lot of small group sessions which are a pain in the ass but I really enjoy analyzing how different people act, especially in front of the professor. Even more satisfying because i've had two personal evaluatino meetings with our prof where our conversations have sidetracked into him sharing his thoughts about just how much 'posing' goes on and him reassuring me that he 'can tell' when people are faking it. His radar must be off though because he apparently thinks I'm smart when I never really say anything and I honestly never know what the hell is going on because i'm always so far behind. It must be the relative excess of stupid shit being said and he probably catches me rolling me eyes from time to time.
But seriously it kinda worries me because these are the same people who will one day be out in circulation prescribing medicine and diagnosing my parents, relatives, friends and innocent strangers. Fundamentally they aren't going to be getting any smarter... just a lot better at faking it. A lot of people will just see the white coat and won't know any better. Like how I am at the mechanic.
Moral of the story... never trust your doctor! We're idiots!!! Or rather talk to your doctor and then go look shit up in wikipedia and make sure he knows what the hell he's talking about.
