Brace Yourself

i guess that's enough for now.

I am a freakin sponge

I don't know what it is, or how I got this way but I am freaking smart today. Somehow my body knows i have an exam on saturday and that pretty much the only studying i did last week was preread (i hate this short two week exam cycle).

I feel like i should pick up my old physics 60 text or something.

I don't even know why i'm blogging right now because i'm probably wasting what could be a very short lived period of mental clarity. But all this and last week everytime i sat down to study cardio I would keep falling asleep and I honestly couldn't absorb anything. Today i burned through a list of 20 new drugs like ... like nothing (that's all i could come up with after sitting here for 2 minutes trying to think up a clever analogy).

I wish i could find some way to harness this power... I might actually be capable of becoming a good doctor some day. Or beating hubert in bridge. Probably tomorrow i will be back to my usual slow self. Or maybe my head is finally recovering my neuro-burnout.

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i had my first admisions commitee meeting today. all i can say is wow. it was very revealing. i won't type anymore because they reiterated ad nauseum about confidentiality such that i'm genuinely afraid of getting kicked out of school for talking about this stuff. but i did realize how utterly crappy of a medical school candidate i was. really the only thing i had going for me was my novel computer science background. it's no wonder i got in off of the waiting list.

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ok back to the grind...

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230am edit: DAMMIT! so much for being smart i just wasted 2 hours looking up halloween costume ideas

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Song of the Week - T.I. - Big Things Poppin.mp3

Look Out

I've just been given a position on my school's admissions committee. Should anyone know anyone who wants to go to a pretty good med school in the godforsaken midwest, i am now currently accepting bribes.

One thing that bothers me is that a couple of the other appointed members are the annoyingly competitive type and a couple of others i just don't like for no good reason at all and it irks me to discover that they are supposedly relatively smart or at least academically successful, because well, i just don't like them. and people i don't like should never succeed. They also left out my friend who i'm pretty sure is the top student in our class so i don't know why they picked me as i really didn't think my interview went very well.

Oh well, now i get to schmooze with all of the bigwig deans and faculty on committee for the next 3 years. I sure hope none of them ever find this blog.

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I went rock-climbing for the first time today at the gym, or probably more accurately, "bouldering". It was actually kind of fun, and now I feel like a man's man because now I can say I climb rocks. And there is nothing more manly than having 4 other men cheering you on as you go for a hand grip while suspended all of 2 feet over the ground. My soft hands are tender as hell right now though. Good forearm workout. And I have a boo-boo on my knee.

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i sure hope stanford wins tomorrow, to justify the ridiculous hours i've spent trolling the bootleg and usc boards and reading up on all things stanford football in the last week.

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lately we've been doing a bunch of small group seminars on 'death and dying'. it's all quite depressing, really. one thing i know for sure is that i will never, ever be an oncologist.

one of the things we have to do for our class is sign up to attend some form of support group, for cancer patients, murder victims etc. it's a very serious business. while fighting over the signup lists i made a very crude joke inquiring as to whether they had a 'terminally ill hot chicks' group, which earned me a couple of laughs and a disgusted look or two... i guess it wasn't the most sensitive thing to say after watching a 40 minute movie about a cancer patient dying.

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hmm i thought i had more to blog about but i'm drawing a blank. my crazy neuro class is finally done with as of last week and i've been feeling rather burnt out lately. i hate learning. with a passion.

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It's getting cold :( i think i need to upgrade blankets soon.

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As usual, my catchy Girly Song of the Week - Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am.mp3