blargh

One thing I hate about med school is that when you do absolutely nothing for an entire friday and saturday, it makes you feel so guilty and shit. before if i did absolutely nothing i would just feel like a loser. now i feel like a guilty loser who is behind. not on school, but i really should have finished up my research this weekend. and now i will have no time during the week.

i hate that pressure to always be productive. it goes against every fiber of my lazy being.

It's just so hard though sometimes. when you turn on the tv and find yourself watching 20 guys and lesbians competing for tila tequila. and then followed up by the spring break special on the backstabbing drama of 'shooter girls'. how can you turn that stuff off. My mind is craving brainless stimulation. i really need to go watch rambo.

off to borders to redeem the free drink i've earned. maybe i'll hit up the mall and get another 1 hour sharper image massage too.