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life is pretty blah right now.
i feel kind of like how i do when i'm doing a physical exam on patients. don't really know what i'm looking for and i'm more or less just going through the motions. blah blah blah. waking up, tying my tie, going in, seeing my patients, going home, think about reading, read up on sports/olympics instead, consciously avoid any real news stories that don't involve celebrity gossip, maybe catch up on some inane tv show, go to bed 2 hours too late, rinse and repeat. i do a good job i suppose but i'm waiting to feel inspired by something... or anything.
outpatient is super chill though. in fact if i only had an actual positive income and didn't have to feel guilty about not reading... by-golly it might actually be a pretty sweet job.
the VA is really lonely though. at least at the main hospital i would run into people on other rotations whom i could shit-talk with or about. i miss my last two subi's. we were so on the same wavelength, so laidback and chill about everything, while still caring and smart. didn't hurt that they were also pretty nice to look at. but it's nice having that 4th-year student buffer who you're not as worried about bothering for time. my interns were pretty chill but they were so damn busy i felt bad everytime i asked a question. plus i have serious MD-envy so it creates tension from my end.
it's always weird when you start on with a whole new crew and you're not sure about the individual levels of anal-retentiveness and you're wondering how far you can go with your jokes and such.
on the plus side one of my new attendings is taking computer science courses cuz she's a total cool uber-nerd and we're hitting it off well, i think. we were shooting the shit about CS stuff and it was cool until she started talking about least squares and algorithms and unix crap that was all over my head. former math major and obviously way smarter than me so i had to do my head-nod thing to pretend like i knew what she was talking about. dammit even in my own field i'm an idiot. way to rep cs.stanford.edu
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the VA is pretty hilarious though. now i don't claim to be an expert... or even know jack shit... about universal health care and what not, but if government run health-care means anything like the VA... well god help us. The VA is like... going into DMV (not cali dmv which is actually pretty smooth sailing the last time i was in there).
the place is like a ghost town before 8 and after 3. i mean the official hours are like 8-5 but once it hits 3:30 people are packing their shit up. can't miss the shuttle. just try to get any labs or imaging done on a friday afternoon. i mean why stay late and put the extra time in when you are salaried.
the f-ing cafeteria blows too. we need more drug reps dammit. if i were running the show every week i would threaten to change PPI's on the damn pharm companies to make sure we have food every day.
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i don't understand belligerent patients. don't they realize that when you're mean nobody likes you and when nobody likes you people don't go the extra mile to make sure you're happy and healthy. that no one's gonna lose any sleep making sure you got the correct correct diagnosis that might be way down on the differential list because you're out the door in a day anyway because you're not acutely sick anymore. or stay that extra hour to make sure all of your questions are answered. it boggles my mind why you wouldn't be nice to the people who have your life in their hands.
baffling because some patients are just so sweet. they might have metastatic cancer all up in their fuckin eyelids or wahtever but they're still smiling or making jokes or even if they're crying you can tell they're fighting and appreciate your help. and you leave the room wanting to donate your kidney to their cause.
so why would you want to be THAT guy? that guy who when I come in at 6am i find myself secretly hoping you coded to the ICU or left AMA so i don't have to waste extra braincells on your daily paperwork. i know your life sucks and whatever and you probably go home to a broken family but don't take your shit out on me. the attending, maybe. but me? heck my life is probably worse than yours. certainly more pathetic.
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because i'm a retard i watched all of top chef season 4 this weekend. i <3 that show. i love how those judge chefs were so badass they were like, "this was so good, i think i would not even mind having seconds". i can't wait til i'm eating at 4-star restaurants and not finishing my plate so i can say shit like that.
man i need to upgrade my eats.
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RIP bernie mac and shaft. i never watched your tv show because it seemed pretty lame but your kings of comedy routine was a goddamn classic.
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eww the new facebook is kind of gay. not that there's anything wrong with that. but i think i'll wait until they force me to change like my.yahoo did after 3 years. now the new my.yahoo is really really gay. not that there's anything wrong with that.
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before i get to my song of the week i just want to say how much more i love my iphone since the sdk/appstore came out. well except for all of the cool little games which keep me from doing any studying at borders.
the coolest app has to be "Shazam" which will record 10 seconds of whatever song is playing in the car, send it to a server, analyze it and then tell you what the artist/title/album is with cover art etc. i don't know how many times i've used this thing in the car. the other day we were at a restaurant and a new song started playing which nobody knew and i was like a hero after i whipped out my phone.
epocrates ain't bad either. i seriously don't know how i lived pre-iphone. it's like i can never not-know anything anymore when i have instant access to wikipedia on my phone.
anyway i found two cool songs on the radio today which inspired this techno-boner rant. so we have 2 songs of the week since this blogging thing is so sporadic..
and here they are for you my 3.5 readers to enjoy:
1) the "cool" song - O.A.R. - Shattered (live)
If you like the song and don't mind a little criminal activity you can find the whole album here
2) the "fruity/sweet" song - Plumb - In My Arms (i think this is actually a christian band):
mp3 here(rapidshare)
i swear one day when i have a decent income i will get around to actually paying for music... one day.
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dammit i'm gonna have to shave tomorrow. i miss being able to walk around like a dirty hobo.
i feel kind of like how i do when i'm doing a physical exam on patients. don't really know what i'm looking for and i'm more or less just going through the motions. blah blah blah. waking up, tying my tie, going in, seeing my patients, going home, think about reading, read up on sports/olympics instead, consciously avoid any real news stories that don't involve celebrity gossip, maybe catch up on some inane tv show, go to bed 2 hours too late, rinse and repeat. i do a good job i suppose but i'm waiting to feel inspired by something... or anything.
outpatient is super chill though. in fact if i only had an actual positive income and didn't have to feel guilty about not reading... by-golly it might actually be a pretty sweet job.
the VA is really lonely though. at least at the main hospital i would run into people on other rotations whom i could shit-talk with or about. i miss my last two subi's. we were so on the same wavelength, so laidback and chill about everything, while still caring and smart. didn't hurt that they were also pretty nice to look at. but it's nice having that 4th-year student buffer who you're not as worried about bothering for time. my interns were pretty chill but they were so damn busy i felt bad everytime i asked a question. plus i have serious MD-envy so it creates tension from my end.
it's always weird when you start on with a whole new crew and you're not sure about the individual levels of anal-retentiveness and you're wondering how far you can go with your jokes and such.
on the plus side one of my new attendings is taking computer science courses cuz she's a total cool uber-nerd and we're hitting it off well, i think. we were shooting the shit about CS stuff and it was cool until she started talking about least squares and algorithms and unix crap that was all over my head. former math major and obviously way smarter than me so i had to do my head-nod thing to pretend like i knew what she was talking about. dammit even in my own field i'm an idiot. way to rep cs.stanford.edu
...
the VA is pretty hilarious though. now i don't claim to be an expert... or even know jack shit... about universal health care and what not, but if government run health-care means anything like the VA... well god help us. The VA is like... going into DMV (not cali dmv which is actually pretty smooth sailing the last time i was in there).
the place is like a ghost town before 8 and after 3. i mean the official hours are like 8-5 but once it hits 3:30 people are packing their shit up. can't miss the shuttle. just try to get any labs or imaging done on a friday afternoon. i mean why stay late and put the extra time in when you are salaried.
the f-ing cafeteria blows too. we need more drug reps dammit. if i were running the show every week i would threaten to change PPI's on the damn pharm companies to make sure we have food every day.
...
i don't understand belligerent patients. don't they realize that when you're mean nobody likes you and when nobody likes you people don't go the extra mile to make sure you're happy and healthy. that no one's gonna lose any sleep making sure you got the correct correct diagnosis that might be way down on the differential list because you're out the door in a day anyway because you're not acutely sick anymore. or stay that extra hour to make sure all of your questions are answered. it boggles my mind why you wouldn't be nice to the people who have your life in their hands.
baffling because some patients are just so sweet. they might have metastatic cancer all up in their fuckin eyelids or wahtever but they're still smiling or making jokes or even if they're crying you can tell they're fighting and appreciate your help. and you leave the room wanting to donate your kidney to their cause.
so why would you want to be THAT guy? that guy who when I come in at 6am i find myself secretly hoping you coded to the ICU or left AMA so i don't have to waste extra braincells on your daily paperwork. i know your life sucks and whatever and you probably go home to a broken family but don't take your shit out on me. the attending, maybe. but me? heck my life is probably worse than yours. certainly more pathetic.
...
because i'm a retard i watched all of top chef season 4 this weekend. i <3 that show. i love how those judge chefs were so badass they were like, "this was so good, i think i would not even mind having seconds". i can't wait til i'm eating at 4-star restaurants and not finishing my plate so i can say shit like that.
man i need to upgrade my eats.
...
RIP bernie mac and shaft. i never watched your tv show because it seemed pretty lame but your kings of comedy routine was a goddamn classic.
...
eww the new facebook is kind of gay. not that there's anything wrong with that. but i think i'll wait until they force me to change like my.yahoo did after 3 years. now the new my.yahoo is really really gay. not that there's anything wrong with that.
...
before i get to my song of the week i just want to say how much more i love my iphone since the sdk/appstore came out. well except for all of the cool little games which keep me from doing any studying at borders.
the coolest app has to be "Shazam" which will record 10 seconds of whatever song is playing in the car, send it to a server, analyze it and then tell you what the artist/title/album is with cover art etc. i don't know how many times i've used this thing in the car. the other day we were at a restaurant and a new song started playing which nobody knew and i was like a hero after i whipped out my phone.
epocrates ain't bad either. i seriously don't know how i lived pre-iphone. it's like i can never not-know anything anymore when i have instant access to wikipedia on my phone.
anyway i found two cool songs on the radio today which inspired this techno-boner rant. so we have 2 songs of the week since this blogging thing is so sporadic..
and here they are for you my 3.5 readers to enjoy:
1) the "cool" song - O.A.R. - Shattered (live)
If you like the song and don't mind a little criminal activity you can find the whole album here
2) the "fruity/sweet" song - Plumb - In My Arms (i think this is actually a christian band):
mp3 here(rapidshare)
i swear one day when i have a decent income i will get around to actually paying for music... one day.
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dammit i'm gonna have to shave tomorrow. i miss being able to walk around like a dirty hobo.
posted by Gerlad at
11:37 PM
2 Comments:
I was a hobo, too. Then my bro's in-laws came into town, so I plucked my chin and pulled out 49 hairs.
Yeah, new Facebook kinda stinks. I reverted immediately, just like my.yahoo. And yeah, my.yahoo stinks now too. Every time I try to click on a link, I end up on a different page because the slowass javascript rendering bait and switched me.
I want an iphone. I would love to have wikipedia at my beck and call. I'm waiting for the next step, when they can link it directly to your brain. And then some criminal mastermind will hack into wikipedia and brain wash everyone. Yeah, I can't wait til the world becomes an anime movie.
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